I really hate that feeling of "nothing is ever going to be OK". It has been suffocating me for a few weeks now. Nothing is pleasurable and everything sucks. And there are so many different feelings drowning me that it's almost intolerable.
Layers
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| February 21, 2012 |
There are so many thick layers weighing me down right now. I'm completely trapped under all of this shit. Layers of sadness and layers of anger. Layers of self-loathing and shame. Layers of fear from the past and for the future. I'm choking on all of it. I wish that collapsing under the pressure was an option. It is taking every single ounce of my will power to sit with this and convince myself that this is not a "forever suck".
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